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Anonymous asked:
I hope one day someone shows you that men can be empathetic, that some of us just want love and we're all not awful
thank u… tbh i was just having a rant LOL im seeing an empathetic guy rn.. im just #dramatic
“The French called this time of day ‘l’heure bleue.’ To the English it was ‘the gloaming.’ The very word ‘gloaming’ reverberates, echoes—the gloaming, the glimmer, the glitter, the glisten, the glamour—carrying in its consonants the images of houses shuttering, gardens darkening, grass-lined rivers slipping through the shadows. During the blue nights you think the end of day will never come. As the blue nights draw to a close (and they will, and they do) you experience an actual chill, at the moment you first notice: the blue light is going, the days are already shortening, the summer is gone.”
— Joan Didion, Blue Nights
i decided last night that i am challenging myself to always be open and honest about my feelings from now on. i’ve realized that i haven’t been fair to a lot of people in my life because i don’t tell them how i really feel… instead i just bottle it up and then explode… and they’re like “wait what??? you never told me that bothered you,” and im like… well… ya… ok true… so it’s time to be 100% honest and myself from now on…
i’m also challenging myself to just talk to people when i want to talk to them instead of going “well i dont wanna bother them or they should talk to me first cuz i talked to them first yesterday blah blah” no more of that. not necessary just overthinking.. not conducive to healthy and happy relationships.
i practiced it tonight and it felt great… and it made it so open and honest conversations could happen and it helped me extend grace etc etc. to me this is one step at becoming a better adult… because i’ve been stuck in these really shitty habits and defense mechanisms for a long time and i’ve realized that it’s made me sad and not get what i want… so what if i wanna see someone a couple days in row… just ask. i’ve realized that you usually aren’t bothering people when you think you are… and that’s it ok to tell someone that you understand but you are also upset and disappointed. there is nothing wrong with being able to understand a situation but still have negative feelings. and while it took me a couple of minutes of deep breathing and talking myself down cuz my abandonment issues started acting up and i wanted to revert to thinking bitterly and nastily about the other person, i was able to cool it and remind myself that they’re human and life happens.
anyway… this has been my annual once every three months blog post.
got a new computer by the way… so that’s nice… woot!!
Song of the Day #16: Everybody Wants to Love You by Japanese Breakfast
“will you make me breakfast in bed? ask me to get married, and then make me breakfast again!”
the next time a man even looks at me im gonna SNAP
Anonymous asked:
I hope you're overcoming your demons
Thank u for this… slowly
Anonymous asked:
hey hi how are ya? happy ?
I’m working towards content … hopefully we’ll get there soon!
Anonymous asked:
Hey hey! I've been following u for like 8 years (theindiehippie) haha i miss seeing u on my dash and I've thought about u a couple times just wanted to say I hope you're doing really well!!!
Omg wow!!! Thanks for the long follow!!! And thank you :)